The Sunday following my one night stand I woke up feeling positive about life but also very much stuck in mine. So very stuck I consulted my angel cards and was told to "follow the signs".
"Repent!" bellowed the priest an hour later.
I can't believe it. I shake my head inside myself as my childhood God forces me to my knees to beg forgiveness, sinner that I am.
"Repent!" he bellows again. "Repent means change! God is Good News!"
My inner head stops shaking and I listen.
"Doesn't matter if you are good person or a bad person God will not judge you!"
And I think of Hitler and Walsh's Conversations with God and wonder if the priest has read this "blasphemous" text.
"Repent means change! In your heart turn the face of God towards you and make every decision from there!"
Now you reader, may have a problem with the word God. That's fine, I did too once. But imagine for a minute the word means Love.
Turn and face the Love within yourself
It's not easy; it's taken me years
You know, when I say the Hail Mary now, I end it saying "Pray for our souls, now and at the hour of our death." Not, "Pray for us sinners.."
I can do that as a fully paid up member of the School of Doris, God is very much Que Sera Sera. He and She and It does not judge you or me or us.
Facing the Love we have within ourselves will reward us more than facing and making decisions based on fear or anger or envy or resentment.
As promised the One Night label has to end with this post or it could go on and on and I want it to finish with a happy ending.
Love not fear as it began
This is the beginning and how this label ends.
Thanks for reading it, I hope it helps you.
Love
Me xxx
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I saw you came over to my blog where I was talking God. I was raised with it, so hard to abandon, so eventually made peace with it, though that took bloomin' ages and wasn't easy. I don't judge anyone who doesn't believe but am relieved you believe in yourself!!! I've had problems with that most of my life. Most important thing! For you, your daughter, your family and friends. Take care of yourself xxx
This above is the comment I left on Merlo's blog. Go over and read her post, it's good to explore different ideas!
http://diariesofme-merlo84.blogspot.com/2012/02/rules-to-live-your-life-by.html
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