A Home for my boy

I've bid on two.
One a housing association flat with a communal garden - £127 a week
The other a council two bed, 12th floor in a tower - £89.01 a week.

I'll get neither. I wonder if one day we'll get what my son wrote on a word document last week:

Mummy and I
Mummy and I are together in a flat. The council won’t put us in a council flat.
We have been living in this flat for ages. I have always wanted to live in a house with a garden, and in the garden there is loads of flowers and one apple tree, but the council won’t let us.
In the house there is a big Sony TV, a big comfy sofa. In the house I have my own bed room and so does my Mum.

My heart is crying because I can't give him what so many have.