When she was 14, her parents thought she was out of control, so they sent her to boarding school. She was teased when she got there because she didn't pronounce her 't's. "Le'er, bu'er" the girls would chant but this didn't phase her, she just took the mickey out of herself. She made some firm friends there and eventually started to talk like them.
The school kicked her out after two years because they couldn't control her, or so the headmistress said.
Her mum and dad suggested she go to a six form college near them and she said "No."
She went to what what used to be a boy's boarding school, recently turned co-ed, where she was teased at first for being "posh". "Letter. Butter." Some staff were unkind to her, she let her best friend be very cruel. The whole experience silenced her.
The school "expelled" her on her very last day. She was caught drinking with the Head Boy, Head Girl and Prefects. The friends she'd made she left behind then ran, ran for her fucking life, speaking as she does today but not in the way of her childhood; free.
"You can run but you can't hide, you have to stop now," said her swelling belly.
The Tower has been her refuge but it's nearly time to leave. She is frightened but Stigmum tells her not to be, tells her she must fight for herself, fight for her child.
She is learning that she must use her past to be who she truly is.
She must look inside herself in order to do so.
The only thing to fear is fear itself.
Something inside so strong (Labi Siffre)
It feels abit naff to put that in, but it's just popped into my head.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PcKoYGNj0BU&feature=related
If the link doesn't work, put in Something Inside So Strong With Lyrics. If I need telling, maybe so do you.
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